I had high expectations for this winter break to be a time of re-charging and re-energizing and a time for blog-writing and photo-taking. But I had a meeting a few days before Christmas about the possibility of getting involved in work that I care about over winter break, expecting to volunteer a few hours a week. Instead, I was offered a position for the month of January, which I learned today will consist of 35 hours a week and a wonderful pay rate. So of course, I said yes. And then I celebrated with a Starbucks latte.
As thrilled as I am about this professional and financial opportunity, I'm a little sad that my winter break will be busy, busy, busy as I try to work full-time, pull together some data and theories that have statistical significance in an effort to publish something meaningful in academia soon, and begin to organize the materials from last semester so I can ease into studying this summer for the comp. exams. (And this summer is already proving to be a bit overwhelming as I attempt to study for these intensive exams and work full-time, while the majority of my peers will forgo the work and just study.) This winter break I could use some time for both daydreaming and night-dreaming, as I learned after sleeping twelve hours many nights in a row over the holiday week. The ups and downs of last semester drained me and I don't think I realized how much I was running on adrenaline and coffee. But the sleep will have to wait, per usual.
I'm quickly trying to re-align my priorities and expectations of the next few weeks while being grateful for what is really an absolutely wonderful opportunity. Also, it keeps my ever-looming worry of having to live in a cardboard box under the Brooklyn Bridge at bay. (Thanks, law school loans.) I've also been thinking the past few days about this space and how to balance blogging and school (especially now that school involves so much more than full-time classes and a part-time job.). For now, I am going to just try to post something on a fairly regular basis. Even if it's short and "meh" and only a placeholder to rebuild my habit of writing.
So, this it will be.